Loner

I'm sitting here, in a Tim Hortons. It's a sunny, April afternoon. My kiddo's at school and I'm running errands. I just ordered a couple sausage English muffins, an xl tt coffee and a 'brookie'. I'm hungry. 
I'm alone. I like coming here for the energy. If I see someone I know, I'll say hi but I'm not going to invite anyone to sit with me. I'm just weird that way. I'm polite, kind and courteous...but it doesn't necessarily mean I like someone. I'm probably smiling at the thought of hacking their brains in! 
Naw...I don't like people but I can't hurt them either. I get thoughts but that's as far as it goes. 
Damn ADHD,I'm getting off track. 
Mind you, that's another reason I don't talk to people. If I truely said what was on my mind, I'd end up in an institute. People don't have to like me...and they don't NEED to know why. My thoughts stay in my brain for a reason. 
I'm strange. I'm a weirdo. I'm a freak. (Trying hard not to turn that into song lyrics hah!) People just don't get me. I harbour a lot of pain. Alot of anger and violent thoughts. But I harbour a lot of love and compassion as well...and my outlet is my art. 
My art is my speech without words. It's language without tongue. (That is, disregarding my poetry) 
It whispers only to those who need to and want to  hear. 
I'm fairly content with myself. I have one amazing friend I'll never let go of. We live far apart but we've been friends since 3rd grade. She's the one person who has NEVER hurt me. 
My boyfriend also lives far and I live in my dad's house with my brother, dog, 2 cats and my kiddo and I share a room. 
That's more than I need so my social life is taken care of. (I'm happy enough without one!!!)
.............
Ohhh...I've been typing for half an hour. I barely eaten my meal. 
I'm gonna sign off now. 

Later freaks,
-Wolfy


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