ArtDHD Paralysis

I want to get Wolfy Bathory Creations up and running. I want to get started so bad. Unfortunately, all the stresses of life just beats me down sometimes. The mental and physical pains are just too much to deal with sometimes. I'm not one to jump on social media and complain. Because of that, when things get bad, I just close myself off. I'll wait till my battery recharges and my brain feels better. It's an introversion thing. I'm very artistic, though. I want to share my work with the world but I don't want pity from people when I'm not feeling right inside. If I post, "I'm having a bad day, I can't find motivation. I can't create today. Sorry guys." I'll end up having my DMs blown up and all I want is to be left alone. 
I've been on different meds all year...finally sort of got what works for me. I'm not expecting any miracles here, I just want things to be a little easier. My brain is a jumbled Forest (I capitalized that cause that's the name of my world) and nothing makes sense. I mean, it makes sense to me but, more often than not, most people don't get it. 

Well, I guess I'd better take care of my kiddos new mattress for her new bed. As soon as the people come in from a different town, she'll have her new bed!! Until then, She'll (hopefully) sleep on her own mattress. 

Later, Freaks,
-Wolfy

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